Beautiful

You know who I'm talking about. That girl you have been eyeing all semester. To everybody else, she looks ordinary, but to you... she's perfect. But what are you going to do? You don't have any classes with her. You don't share any mutual friends with her. And you only see her once a week, in the dining hall when she is with her friends. And somehow you lose your appetite whenever she is there. You can feel that intensely about her, but you're not going to do anything? Cause you have no chance with a girl like that. So you block her out and concentrate on school.

Truth is... any guy has a chance with any girl. Cause girls don't know what they want until they see it. You just have to show them. And of course, with such advice, how can you trust me? Well, I wrote this because I have a story to tell.

Sitting at a bus stop on a fine spring day, she appeared. She was alone. She went on the H-bus. I was going for a B-bus, but without much thought, I jumped on the H-bus. We sat across from eachother. I took many glances at her, and to my surprise, I would catch her taking glances at me. The bus stopped, she got out. At that point I was in bullet time, where every second felt like a minute. I knew it was my opportunity, so I took my chances and ran after her. Tapped her on the shoulder and said:

"Hey. Excuse me. What Asian are you?" (cause she looked either Japanese or Korean)
"Korean."
"Oh. The reason I asked is because I had this discussion with my friends about what is the best looking Asian type of girls. And I was wondering what I was looking at?"
"Ooooh. Thank you. I am so flattered."
"My name is Allan. What's your name?"

She left her name. After that, every time I saw her, I spoke with her.

As time went on, and to prevent myself from becoming just a friend, I needed to confront her, tell her how I feel, and set up a date. Once I saw her, she looked right at me; but instead of saying hi, she didn't seem like she wanted to recognize me. Confused I went on her bus. Bus stopped, she left, and I was in bullet time again. I stood at the door for a good minute, not even aware that I was blocking people. I got out, ran across the street dodging two near misses, and caught up to her.

"Hey, did you not see me?"
(she denied)
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
"No. I'm busy with schoolwork."
"I have something to tell you. I don't know how to say it, so I'll just say it. I am really attracted to you. And I was hoping that maybe we could hangout, go to the movies, eat, or go do something together."
"Aw... Sure."

So I asked for her phone number, and she gave it to me. By the 3-day rule, I called her on the 3rd day. It was picked up, but no answer and a lot of shuffling noises. So I called again. No pick up.

I found her in the dining hall one day and asked. She said she doesn't pick up her phone. I asked if she wanted to do something sometime. She said she had to study for finals. I said that I would maybe call her some other time. I didn't know what to say as she was not going to pick up. With her strange new attitude, I thought I got rejected.

A new semester started. I had a meeting. By chance, she was there too. I tried to think nothing of her. But, the thing is that she glanced at me a lot; she sometimes even stared at me. I thought that I should get over her, but this sparked my interest again. Cause she is my dreamgirl. So for the whole semester, I kept myself away from girls. So if the chance would come, I could get her. But, in general, I was just very confused.

Another semester started, she probably forgot about me or lost interest already. But I had to find out. As Valentine's Day rolled along, I got her a giant cookie that said "Be Mine". I also made a card asking if she remembers me, and that I want to get to know her better.

I delivered it when she had class. She took a look at the cookie, and gave me a hug. She then gave me a heart sticker and Hershey kisses. I was so overwhelmed by the moment; I felt like I was dreaming. It was so good to be true that I couldn't think of anything to say to her, and somehow "I think I should go" came out. Right after, I felt like my brain and body were melting, in a good way. I couldn't even walk.

Days after that, as I walked to the back of the bus, she was there. I said "hi" and she replied "hi". Then she moved farther back in the bus, and she started to talk to her friends. Confused by what happened, I just sat there. As she left, she said bye to her friends, but not to me. I got out, and debated if I should run after her. I watched if she would look back, but she never did.

I tried to IM her, but she wouldn't reply. Once in a while, I would see her in the dining hall. I would make small talk with her. I asked if she was busy for the weekend, and she was. Not too long after that, she stopped going on AIM and her Facebook profile said that she was in a relationship. I went into depression, and that was also when I had a fever for a week for spring break.

Trying to stay content, I randomly saw them together. They didn't see me; and she looked so happy, and I never saw her that happy before. And that just ripped my heart out. I'm not mad. I'm happy for her. It's just that I wish I was the one that makes her feel that happy.

I'm sorry I couldn't end this with a happy ending; because this is what really happened. The lesson is that as long as a girl doesn't mention that she doesn't need a boyfriend or that you in some way or another can never be her boyfriend, then you have a chance. It's not your looks, appearance, or charm that gets the girl. It certainly helps to get her attention. However, it's all about persistence.

Don't make my mistake. I sighed throughout writing this. I regret for being so stupid. I met her, as a stranger, on the street. And we actually waited for eachother for almost a year. And it ended because I was insecure and I lacked experience to act at the right times. Now I understand that her weird reactions were probably because she was as nervous as I was.

If "YOU" are reading this, I wish for you to have a happy and prosperous life. And I'm very thankful that you actually waited that long for me...