Broken Dreams

2 years ago, we met on myspace. The communication kept growing, and we could talk about anything. It was unfortunate that you were in the military, and I was here, in the states. It was the first moment in my life I thought I could love someone, but I held back my emotions.

Off and on we communicated, sometimes months would pass by without any emails. You never left my mind nor my heart. Kinda threw me back when you told me you were engaged, after the last speech you gave me about not wanting anyone in your life. But I understood, and I stood by your side. Without meeting you face to face, I stood by your side.

Now, we started to communicate again. My heart grew fonder of you, and yes sadly, I have fallen for you. Again though I'm rejected because you don't want anyone in your life. I can see now that after 2 years of communication and always being a willing friend, you don't want me... but you can't come out and say it.

So I lay here, at 1am... crying my eyes out and posting this online. Staring at your pictures and I writhe in pain because I want to speak to you badly. I'm afraid I've cost us our friendship because I wanted something more. For that I apologize, because losing you is completely killing me - and I've never seen you face to face. I feel stupid.

I love you. After awhile....I will fade, but my emotions won't. I will love you until my death. I only hope my suffering will bring about your happiness in some shape or form, because that is all I want for you. I pray, you make it home safely.